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Oct
07

70 Favorite Songs: 69. Xanax

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Categories: favorite songs

Afraid of an airplane, of a car swerving in the lane
of the dark cloud too low or being swept away by the undertow
of a building tumbling down, of the train when it’s underground
of the icy mountain roads we have to take to get to the show.

There’s just a time when we must all let go of
the breath that we hold
There’s just a time when we must all let go of
the breath that we hold,
into the unknown we have to go…

Afraid of the phone rings, another breath of life has ceased
It seems it’s just lost so easily
Afraid my heart, it beats too slow or like I died and just didn’t know
or of a fate I will have to choose and I’m afraid of how much I love you…

There’s just a time when we must all let go of
the breath that we hold
There’s just a time when we must all let go of
the breath that we hold,
into the unknown we have to go…

It’s just now that I found a place where I can breathe…
It’s just now that I found a place where I can sleep…

Composer/Performer: Maria Taylor
First Released: 2005
Album: 11:11
Genre: Indie Rock
First heard her in: Grey’s Anatomy Soundtrack (“Song Beneath a Song”) then started downloading. She was also part of dream pop duo Azure Ray with Orenda Fink.
Why I Love It: called Xanax after the anti-anxiety medicine given to the clinically depressed, this is one of the most beautiful songs I have ever heard (I’m almost tempted to call it my most favorite, but argh, it’s just so hard to choose.) I just relate so much to the mind-numbing fear and anxiety that the persona in the song experiences…well, if only I can find that place where I can breathe, then I could say that the song perfectly fits my life. Oh well, not just yet, anyway. 
Also Listen To: “Song Beneath a Song”, “One For the Shareholder” and “Leap Year” (as Maria Taylor); “New Resolution”, “For No One” (as Azure Ray)

16
Oct
07

Grrr. This is Why I Want to Live in the UK.

By bittergrace 4 Comments
Categories: television

Haaay. kelan kaya yan makakarating sa Pilipinas? Owel. Sorry, adik lang. hehe.

oh, and if you’re curious about the music and its composer go here.

ah ahm vahmpyrrr!

"Vous m’avez dit “Je t’aime.” Je vous ai it “Attendez.” J’ai Presque dit “Oui.” Vous avez dit “Partez.”" (You told me “I love you.” I told you “Wait.” I almost said “Yes.” You said “Go away.”) ~ from Jules et Jim by Francois Truffaut

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Wicked Girls Saving Ourselves
by Seanan McGuire
(2008)

Wendy played fair, and she played by the rules that they gave her;
They say she grew up and grew old -- Peter Pan couldn't save her.
They say she went home, and she never looked back,
Got her feet on the ground, got her life on its track.
She's the patron saint priestess of all the lost girls who got found.
And she once had her head in the clouds, but she died on the ground.

Dorothy just wanted something that she could believe in,
A gray dustbowl girl in a life she was better off leavin'.
She made her escape, went from gray into green,
And she could have got clear, and she could have got clean,
But she chose to be good and go back to the gray Kansas sky
Where color's a fable and freedom's a fairy tale lie.

Dorothy, Alice and Wendy and Jane,
Susan and Lucy, we're calling your names,
All the Lost Girls who came out of the rain
And chose to go back on the shelf.
Tinker Bell says, and I find I agree
You have to break rules if you want to break free.
So do as you like -- we're determined to be
Wicked girls saving ourselves.

Alice got lost, and I guess that we really can't blame her;
They say she got tangled and tied in the lies that became her.
They say she went mad, and she never complained,
For there's peace of a kind in a life unconstrained.
She gives Cheshire kisses, she's easy with white rabbit smiles,
And she'll never be free, but she's won herself safe for a while.

Susan and Lucy were queens, and they ruled well and proudly.
They honored their land and their lord, rang the bells long and loudly.
They never once asked to return to their lives
To be children and chattel and mothers and wives,
But the land cast them out in a lesson that only one learned;
And one queen said 'I am not a toy', and she never returned.

Mandy's a pirate, and Mia weaves silk shrouds for faeries,
And Deborah will pour you red wine pressed from sweet poisoned berries.
Kate poses riddles and Mary plays tricks,
While Kaia builds towers from brambles and sticks,
And the rules that we live by are simple and clear:
Be wicked and lovely and don't live in fear --

For we will be wicked and we will be fair
And they'll call us such names, and we really won't care,
So go, tell your Wendys, your Susans, your Janes,
There's a place they can go if they're tired of chains,
And our roads may be golden, or broken, or lost,
But we'll walk on them willingly, knowing the cost --
We won't take our place on the shelves.
It's better to fly and it's better to die
Say the wicked girls saving ourselves.